SomedaySomeday, you'll accept meSomeday, you'll understandSomeday you will be happy for meWhen you see me hold her handSomeday you'll both realizeJust how happy I could beIf you would give me and her a chanceYou can't know how much it would mean to meYou didn't ever have to go through thisYet you think it's just a phaseBut I'd bet you would both understandIf you know how it feels when she holds my gazeMother, I wish you'd accept me the way I amSo I could say how I feel for her aloudDaddy, you look down on this nowBut someday, you'll see why I'm proudI wish that you knew how much courage it tookJust for me to come out to youYou want me to be a good, straight little girlWell, this isn't about youI don't need your approval to feel this wayYou cannot control my worldI don't need your input, because I already know...that I AM IN LOVE WITH THIS GIRL!Mom and Dad, hear me outI am your daughter, the lesbianAlthough I can't say that I like girlsBecause I only have eyes for on
Until You Found MeUntil I found you,Love was a path of broken liesUntil I found you,Nobody saw me through your eyesUntil I found you,I couldn't know what to feelUntil I found you,I thought this love could not be realI didn't know what I truly lackedI didn't know if I should go backI didn't know if I could surviveI didn't know if I could feel aliveWhen it came to love, I didn't know who to trust or what to believeUntil you found meUntil I found you,I thought all hopes of love had diedUntil I found you,Countless seas of tears I criedUntil I found you,I was lost with nowhere to turnUntil I found you,Love's fire just made me burnI didn't know what I truly lackedI didn't know if I should go backI didn't know if I could surviveI didn't know if I could feel aliveAnd when it came to love, I guess I just didn't know who to trust or what to believeUntil you found meIsn't it funny how we look back on our pastsAnd we don't cry anymore?Because when we lost old love that didn't lastWe e
UsedClinging on to somethingI know is no longer trueThis love is going to kill me, butI can't let go of you"Honey, either you end it now and it hurts,"Were the words my best friends said to me,"Or she ends it later and it hurts so much worse"But in the end, you were the one to leaveMine is not the first love to be shatteredOr the first heart to be tornThese are not the first scars on my wristThat I have ever boreYou are not the first oneBy whom I've been abusedYou may be a fucking tool,But I'm the one being usedYou're kicking my heart in the ass with cleatsYou won't ever know how it feelsTo walk a mile in my shoesBut you couldn't if you tried; they're five-inch heelsThey all said I deserved someone better for meThat I was a diamond in the roughI gave you my fucking everythingI guess in the end, it wasn't enoughMine is not the first love to be shatteredOr the first heart to be tornThese are not the first scars on my wristThat I have ever boreYou are not the first
The First Time...When I first s a w you...I was afraid to m e e t you.When I first m e t you...I was afraid to k n o w you.When I first k n e w you...I was afraid to l i k e you.When I first l i k e d you...I was afraid to l o v e you.When I first l o v e d you...I was afraid to t e l l you.When I first t o l d you...I was afraid to h o l d you.When I first h e l d you...I was afraid to k i s s you.When I first k i s s e d you...I was afraid to h a v e you.When I first h a d you...I was afraid to l
You Can't Change My HeartI'm so tired of this shit. I'm tired of telling people I'm something that I'm not. Something that I'll never be. Something that I never was.This secret haunted me for years. Since I was nine, this secret had been torturing me, I didn't want to admit it. I didn't want to accept it. I wasn't ashamed of who I was; I was afraid. Afraid that others wouldn't accept me. Afraid that I'd be treated differently. Afraid that everyone would leave me. Afraid that nobody would understand. Afraid that I would be alone.Last August, I told one friend, she was the only one who knew. And since then, I have gradually told more people the secret that I just kept locked up inside. But now, people know. Not everyone, not yet, but some friends, and my mother. And they all still love me. They're proud of me, and I've gotten nothing but support.And now, I don't care who knows. I will shout my secret to the world, because now, I am done with hiding who I am. And if it makes me some enemies, I won't car
Hate YouI hate the way your lips form when you smileAnd the way you've cut your hairI hate your damn brown eyes, and how it's a lieAnd how I know this isn't fairI hate how you wouldn't look me in the eyeWhile those words escaped your lipsI hate how I still miss the wayYou used to press against my hipsI hate all the promises you made only to breakAnd all the vows you'll never keepI hate how your presence still haunts my worldAnd echoes through my mind as I sleepI hate the months after you left meThat I spent as a basket caseI hate all the useless tears I wastedCrying over the photo of our embraceI hate knowing you won't read thisOr show if you give damnI hate still hearing the songs that we said were oursAnd how you'll never see the things I canI hate the loss of the bond we used to shareAnd why it left with all the painI hate how we couldn't get the chanceFor you to kiss me in the rainI hate all we enduredAnd my breakdown, followed by my breakthroughI hate knowing tha
Forget My NameI could've drowned in the tears I shedBut I swam to the other sideYour words, like razors, could've cut me apartBut the cracks in my heart no longer resideThe way you dismissed me could kill me slowlyBut my heart, I defendAfter all those years I wasted loving youTo you, I no longer surrendYou wish you could forget meI will not lose this gameAs you walk away without meIn your mind, I'll still remainI'm out of your trap, I am set freeBut you'll never forget my nameEverything that we've been throughYou pretend it's all goneBut you know I once held your heartTo you, I no longer belongEnded in heartbreak in FebruaryAfter our first kiss in OctoberNo more tears to cry over you nowHigh with new love, yet still as soberAnd I bet you wish you could forget meBut I will not lose this gameAs you walk away without meIn your mind, I'll still remainI'm out of your trap, I am set freeBut you'll never forget my nameBare the shame as you realize you were wrongSomeday you'll l
One Last Time...I can't believe you're gone...No. You can't be. You just can't. I won't accept it. I won't admit it.You were there when I came into the world.You were with me, my brother, my mother, your son that is my father, your wife that is my grandmother, you've been with all of us for every Christmas, every Hanukkah, at least once every summer.You've been a part of my life from the very moment it began, form my very first breath as a baby, you were there..... Why do you have to be gone?I would give up the world just to have you back with us, Pop-pop.I miss you, so much...What would I have to giveJust to have seen you one last time?Just to hug you,To hear your voiceTo tell you how much you mean to meJust oncePlease, just one more timeI'd give the world just to spend one more day with you and our familyIt hurts so much to know you're gone....If I had know that last ChristmasWas the last time I'd ever get to see you,Hug you,See your loving smile,Hear you say how proud you were o
And This Is WhyThe little nervous laugh she does when she's talkingThe look that says "Oh, I love you"The way her body curves in all the right placesThe deep red lipstick she wearsThe fact that she knows everything about me,And still loves meThe dance she does when a good song comes onThe way she puts my heart straight through the cloudsAnd how she always seems to stop timeThe soft little breaths she takes just before she falls asleepEvery little smileEvery little sighEvery little kissI've needed this the whole timeWithout a doubt I'd take all the wrong parts outAnd let those green eyes fill up my worldNo one else knows me like she doesNo one else forgives me like she doesThere is no other who can do nothing and amaze meThere is no other like My Princess
hold my heartit's the way you just look at mehow you capture my hands, my lips, my heart, my soulyour pressure on my skin, your scratches cross my backyou leave your mark with every touchhold my heart, it's beating for you anyway.
Take Your Best ShotGo ahead.Call me Gay.Guess what?I don't care.Because,I know I'm happierthan you ever will be.
Because of HimBecause of him, I laugh differentlyI never turn off my phoneI curse like a sailorI listen to new musicI lose sleepI cry dry tearsI love myself, if only for a momentI know true painI know true blissI am different, because of him.
I'm not a lierI would be lying to you if I told you that I never think of youbecause I do all the time..I would be lying to you if I told you that I never want youbecause I do 24/7...I would be lying to you if I told you that I never miss youbecause I do
I Love YouI love you.Three little words.Three of the tiniest words known to man.So why exactlyIs it so hard to say themTo you?
Love is BlindMy ears do not hear,My eyes do not see,But my heart still feels love,And so I am free.Love without limits, love without bars,Love that is joyful, love beyond rage.This I have found, and this I do know:Love unlocked the door of my heart's lonely cage.I will not listen to the anger screamed in my face,I will not allow my soul to know fear.I am whole, I am loved.This is right, to have my love by me here.Take a moment, stand with me.Hear through my ears, see through my eyes.Do you understand the truth of my world,That love sees beyond all disguise?You can fight it, deny it, run away out of fear;Lock up mind and heart behind cannon-proof walls.But is it worth it to greet love with hate,And deny the sound of unity's call?Man, woman, white, black, fat, thin, us, them;These are the words that define what love can be.What is allowed to the heart lest we offend the eyes.And yet, I am blind - so my heart is free.
Why Does It Matter?Why does it matterWho I love?It's all the same to youWe never hurt youSo why do I feel threatenedEvery time I'm with herIn a public place?Why does it matterWhen you see us together?How is it differentFrom a boy and a girl?Why does it matterThat I don't feel shamedWhen you are the oneNot IWho have done the wrong?Why does it matterThat when two peopleAre marriedThat they are of opposite gender?They say you can't helpWho you fall in love with.What happened to that?Why does it matterIf we are God's childrenWhy does it matterTo whom our heart belongs?For is it notThe job of a parent to accept?And to love?No matter the child's choices?Is it not their jobTo comfortTo praiseTo understandTo welcome?So whyI beg of you tell me whyWhy does it matter?
It felt so real.My arms slink around your perfect form, pulling you close so the swells of my breasts lightly press into your back as your hair cascades over your shoulder, tickling my nose softly in the warm sunlight that seeps in from the aging morning. Our fingers and legs intertwine under the soft white blanket that covers our half naked bodies from everyone but ourselves.We smile and giggle softly with tiny reassuring squeeze of a hug, or grasp of the hand in our perfect world. The trees just beyond the window are sprinkled heavily with the baby pink flowers and the periwinkle sky is dotted lightly with the odd snow white cloud.Here its perfect and here is where we lay, embraced by each other as the world keeps moving and spinning, aging day by day but yet
its not perfect
My eye flutter and the blanket huffs as I roll over, attempting to find you again but I can't. It's cold. It's dark. You're not there.I sit up and look around the best I can but all I see is the dim moonlight that
EpiphanyI'm pointlessly sitting in the bitter windgoosebumps all overthinking to myselfit would be worth itif i was keeping him warm.
It Wasn't Love At First SightI've never believed in love at first sight.I mean, can you get a crush on someone at first sight?Yeah, of course.There's crush at first sight.Lust at first sight.But not love at first sight.And when you and I met,when you ran up to me,it wasn't love at first sight.Or crush at first sight.Or lust a first sight.Nope.It was "huh-she-might-be-nice" at first sight.And when you first spoke to me,saying breathlessly, "Are you in group 2?"and I said, "Um
yes,"it wasn't love at first hear.Or crush at first hear.Or lust at first hear.Nope.It was "thank-God-someone-friendly-to-hang-out-with" at first hear.And when you squealed in delightand hugged me,it wasn't love at first touch.Or crush at first touch.Or lust at first touch.Nope.It was "wow-this-girl-needs-help" at first touch.But I had a feeling I'd like you anyway.And I did.We had so many things in common.We never ran out of things to talk about.Or random, weird, and just plain bizarre things to do.Like
With YouI just want to be with youNo matter what happens of what we go throughBecause my heart is forever yoursThis love will keep seeping out my poresOnly you are the object of my affectionWhere I'll lavish my care, love and protectionMy living heart beats only for youIf you wondered how I love you, maybe that gives you a clueI'll do for you whatever you askIt doesn't matter, my darling, whatever the taskAs long as you're happy, I do not careWhere life takes me, as long as you're there