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And Here We Stand Still...As I walk the ground
I forsee the death of many
Choked on their desires
To destroy us all
For being different
For being something better than them
Questioning myself
I see hate in their eyes
For having something
They do not
Fearing my shadow
I see them being free
Not knowing what it is to be inside
To know oneself
Is freedom in itself
And yet it's never enough
To push us farther
Down a hole
Kicking and screaming
Laughter all around
While our screams fill the room,
Fill our ears
And blood fills our sight
Rage takes control
Patience we have none
Maybe we can be free
From this rabbit hole one more ti

HopeHope,
As it festers in my soul
I take a note and hold still
Waiting on everything good
Trying to push away all negative feelings
Grabbing a pen and writing my thoughts
Stressing out fear
Breathing in hope
Relaxing for once
Letting hope take hold once more
Oh the joy of allowing tears to flow
Embracing my future
In seeing my family once more
The happiness
Takes away my pain
Just to see them again
I'm smiling at the knowledge
That finally they accept me
And that my efforts have not been laid to waste
Hope for my futures embrace
To have someone by my side
As I say "I do"
And they say it too
To walk down the isle
H

Your Beautiful SmileI see your face
All the time
In my dreams
While I'm walking
When I close my eyes
I just imagine your beautiful smile
Your beautiful skin
As I lay a soft kiss
Upon those tasty lips
Sometimes I'm troubled
But as soon as you touch me
The world dissolves around us
And nothing else matters
I just wished you could be real
Because without you here
The world is just an empty shell
Crushing away all hope
But must not think now
Only to embrace you
Before my head clears
And I forget the smell of strawberries
The feel of your skin
The color of your hair
And your beautiful smile
Oh so wish for you to be real
Until

Until You Found MeUntil I found you,
Love was a path of broken lies
Until I found you,
Nobody saw me through your eyes
Until I found you,
I couldn't know what to feel
Until I found you,
I thought this love could not be real

I didn't know what I truly lacked
I didn't know if I should go back
I didn't know if I could survive
I didn't know if I could feel alive
When it came to love, I didn't know who to trust or what to believe
Until you found me

Until I found you,
I thought all hopes of love had died
Until I found you,
Countless seas of tears I cried
Until I found you,
I was lost with nowhere to turn
Until I found you,
Love's fire just made

SomedaySomeday, you'll accept me
Someday, you'll understand
Someday you will be happy for me
When you see me hold her hand

Someday you'll both realize
Just how happy I could be
If you would give me and her a chance
You can't know how much it would mean to me

You didn't ever have to go through this
Yet you think it's just a phase
But I'd bet you would both understand
If you know how it feels when she holds my gaze

Mother, I wish you'd accept me the way I am
So I could say how I feel for her aloud
Daddy, you look down on this now
But someday, you'll see why I'm proud

I wish that you knew how much courage it took
Just for me to come ou

Moment of TruthLate night, slow country song,
Candle light, dresses we wore once to prom
Holding each other tight, forever doesn't seem so long

I've dreamt of a moment like this all my life
With not just any girl, but a girl I hope to call my wife

And I don't mean to speak too soon
But it's hard not to when I see your beauty in the light of a candle moon

So softly now, as I whisper in your ear, "I do"
Forgive me briefly, for this is my moment of truth

It was once, not so long ago when I used to dance like this
In the arms of the monster and we'd share a delicate kiss

I thought that was living until I felt your touch
And I realized I'd been using

I Said ItThe words flew out,
after years of denial,
repression and prayer.
A warm chill consumed my person,
as much as a contradiction as I feel.
I gasped at what I had done.
Why did I do it?
Why did I tell HIM??
Why am I even asking these questions?
For the first time in years,
I feel good.
Really good!
I want to shout it from the top of this little town
and yet I feel more repressed than ever.
I realize the consequences of my actions,
of my words.
"I'm gay".

Don't forget.Dancing and spinning 'round and 'round Let's just hope we don't fall down.
memories are not important right now. Just you and me in the dark, breathing hard.
Slaps are heard as tears fall down. Bruises we can't cover, bitemarks we can't hide.
Screams add pleasure as chains bring pain. Blood will be spilt on this unholy day.
You'r mine forever so don't forget, Because you can't forget me.

The Change CHPT 1Chapter 1 Night of Change

Im lying in a hospital beat up. Im in a town far away and im away from my family.
Man im in a bad spot. Bet your wondering why im here, First I will tell you who I am, where I'm from, and why I'm actually here. My name
is Samantha Emry, people call me a low life but really I work…well used to work at
the FBI. I was captain of the bureau until an accidental death of a victim. I'm not
the richest girl in the world, that's why I live with my brother Josh in Las Vegas,
Nevada. Now that you know me shall we begin the story?

"Shorter Josh!" Cut it shorter," I said as locks of my hair fell to the ground.

My GirlThe night was cold. She had been watching the building for half an hour. The building's occupant pulled away from behind the store a few minutes before and the structure had been still and lifeless in her absence. The lights were off and all was silent. Summoning her courage, she slipped out of the shadows and off of her clandestine spy post on top of a trash dumpster. She felt the sand, pebbles, and concrete of the driveway against her feet as she quietly crept across the gap to the store. Taking cover behind a bush, her fingers slipped into the flower pot where she knew spare keys were kept. Vaulting over the railing, she crouched next to t

Him For MeI've been sitting here staring at the pen in my hand
Been trying to find the words but I don't understand
Why when it comes to writing 'bout you
I don't know what to do...
I just start crying

God - why must it be me who pays the price?
A daddy's girl stabbed in the heart with a knife
The man she called her home
Sitting there all alone...
Makes her feel like dying

God - why can't I have him back the way he used to be?
Can't you exchange him for me?

God please hear me out
I'm down on my knees
I'm so tired of being frightened
A father's embrace is all I need
He's the man of my heart
And it's tearing me apart
God please give hi

Enough is EnoughEnough is enough is enough is enough
And I'm searching for the words to finish it off...

A day spent with those gorgeous green eyes
Shining up the spaces like pretty lights

No question about it – I love you, I hate you
I can't live without you

But unrequited love only brings pain
Tears and hurt and broken hearted blood stains

You know how I feel
And I know that this is real

But my immature rhyming leaves a lot to say
And I'll always be here while you're far away

Listen to me! When I'm with you I'm home
When you're gone something's missing and I'm all alone

With you I can star as the girl I want to be
I feel more alive than

ReflectionI look in her eyes
I can see that she's lonely
It's written all over her face.
But that's nothing new
It's the honest truth
She writes just to fill empty space.

But she's had
Enough of this waiting
She's tired
Of calling your name
She's had
Enough of crying in shadows
And she's tired
Of playing this endless game

And she runs, away from the obvious
She runs, away from your eyes
But she just ends up falling into your arms
And falling into dreams she knows to be lies

I look in her eyes
It's not hard to see
That she's cried all the tears that she can.
But at least what she feels
Is something at all
At least she stands her

FlightI had a dream
I flew away
On wings of silk.
And you stood
On golden sand
Calling me back
Screaming
With tears in your eyes
And blood on your hands.
But I didn't hear you
I carried on flying
Out to sea
Above the blanket waves
Within the clouds
Below heaven's eye
And when I turned back
You were gone.

Then I woke up
Calling your name
On the edge of sleep
And then I remembered
Why you left....

It was you who flew away
On wings of silk.
And it was me left standing
Alone on the beach
With your name on my lips
My own tears
And my own blood

The tears you shed for me
Fell a long time ago.

And I don't make you cry
Anymor

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Hate You

by ~Okashi-Okami-of-DOOM, Jul 7, 2011, 10:08:36 PM
Literature / Poetry / Romantic / Teen / Urban & Spoken Word

I hate the way your lips form when you smile
And the way you've cut your hair
I hate your damn brown eyes, and how it's a lie
And how I know this isn't fair

I hate how you wouldn't look me in the eye
While those words escaped your lips
I hate how I still miss the way
You used to press against my hips

I hate all the promises you made only to break
And all the vows you'll never keep
I hate how your presence still haunts my world
And echoes through my mind as I sleep

I hate the months after you left me
That I spent as a basket case
I hate all the useless tears I wasted
Crying over the photo of our embrace

I hate knowing you won't read this
Or show if you give damn
I hate still hearing the songs that we said were ours
And how you'll never see the things I can

I hate the loss of the bond we used to share
And why it left with all the pain
I hate how we couldn't get the chance
For you to kiss me in the rain

I hate all we endured
And my breakdown, followed by my breakthrough
I hate knowing that if you asked for one last chance
That I couldn't hesitate to give it to you

I hate how all we had has faded
And why it had its fall
Yet what I know I'll hate the most is admitting
That I couldn't ever hate you at all

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~tptgirl6 May 10, 2013 New member

brilliantly written, loved it

This is exactly how I am with my crush right now! Every bit down to those damn brown eyes...

~HellsTragedy Apr 3, 2012

This is like what I'm going through to be completely honest. This poem is very lovely and creative and has a wonderful yet sad story. Just so you know, I wish you luck in your life. At least now I know some people actually understand. ^.^

~Okashi-Okami-of-DOOM Apr 5, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Awh, thank you, I wish the same for you.

It's been a long time since I felt that way, but I do know what it feels like. It's not fun, it's not easy, and it's certainly not something that anyone would ever want to go through, but when it ends, it gets so much better. you learn form it, and you only become stronger.

~HellsTragedy Apr 6, 2012

Thanks! I hope it gets better for me. I think your Icon is cute btw.

~Okashi-Okami-of-DOOM Apr 8, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

I hope it does too, dear.

Best wishes to you.

And thank you!!

~HellsTragedy Apr 8, 2012

Of course!

*Joojie99 Jul 14, 2011 Student Traditional Artist

this is reaally good, i love it. So honest and moving. Great job

~Okashi-Okami-of-DOOM Jul 15, 2011 Hobbyist Writer

You have NO IDEA how much that means to me.

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